A Poetic Conversation

It all started with one of my tweets and became a small chain of a beautiful conversation with @Rane_Shradha. Here is our Conversation. A is me and R is shradha :)

A:The silence spoke to me~ In the sleepless night~ Wisest words I ever heard~ Everything true and right.

R: I've come in fresh-turned :: blue sky beneath me :: and the underworld hurrying toward dawn .

A: In this chaotic world:: Full of Crime:: Peace is the divinity:: Peace is sublime

R: Inside their songs as they're pulled to the sky :: I no longer know my own name.

A: Somethings above me, Somethings below :: Making me stay attached to my strings

R: Push back the sky until it can never be reached :: my infinity is visible in clouds.

A: I try to touch the sky:: Touch Infinity:: I close my eyes:: Infinity within me.

Micro Poetry-2

Another set of poetry from twitter. Enjoy.

A Hug and A Kiss

Wrap me in your hug
So warm so cosy. 
Make me stop the talk,
Locking your lips on mine.

I'll Be..
Show to me
The deep dark place
You hide within
I'll be the light

Oasis

You were the oasis to me
A rescue when i needed one
Like a shady tree
Cooling me under the harshest sun.

Wrinkles

Wrinkles grew deep
So did the love
Hands in hands they walked, sharing the warmth
No need of a glove

Why?

He looked above
He watched the sky
Thinking about his life
Fading colors, asking why?

Micro Poetry-1

I wrote some micro poetry on my twitter and here are some of them. Have a look

Shades of Grey

The shades of grey from past
Grow darker as I keep remembering them. 
Reminding me that they existed 
More and more each day.

Punishment

The words have got jumbled up now
I don't remember the exact
But you once said I Love You
I believed you, And today is a punishment.

Silence

The silence spoke to me
In the sleepless night
Wisest words I ever heard
Everything true and right.

Inspiration Is everywhere
I little patch of greenery,
A streak of light,
A hazy Rainbow seen,
Enough to brighten up a life.

A Perfect Meal

A perfect breakfast/lunch/dinner would be,
A meal cooked together,
Sharing it on the same plate
With lots of laughter.

Imperfectly Perfect Life...

When I was young a friend of mine used to tell me "You are lucky to have a sister Apara". That time I used to wonder what's so special about having a sister? I just felt that maybe she just wanted to comfort me. You must be thinking why did I use that word. Right? So let me tell you that I was jealous of her. She was more hardworking than me, used to get better marks, and for more such reasons. Once she told me "Apara please help me out with this sum" That was again a shock. Me? Helping her? But now I am older, wiser (not fully wise enough to preach you guys. But yes I am more than I was at that time) and now I realize that what she meant. I just failed to realize that I too have the potential that I was missing out. She was the only child she used to get bored. On the other hand I had someone to share many feelings with. Someone who would stand by me no matter what.

I would like to quote another instance of my life. I had a best friend at that time. I was jealous of her too for having a lot of money. Money to buy new clothes every other day and that too from the most expensive shops in town. She used to show me those clothes. Feeling jealous doesn't mean that I hated my parents but just as a child it was a childish fantasy you can say. But one day she confessed something to me and I was really surprised by what she said. Sitting on her house's terrace talking about nothing she just took out this topic out of nowhere "Apara i just love your clothes. You have a good dressing sense you know. Can you please tell me from where you buy clothes?" I told her. Still the feeling didn't go. Now it's gone for an obvious reason.

Many a times in life we feel jealous of people. We feel like "God! Why am I not that lucky enough?". We feel jealous because they have it and you don't. We fail to realise that what WE HAVE and THEY DON'T. Clothes, accessories, house, car bike, scooty and even bf/gf? People can go to any extent any being jealous. Life is like that. People are like that. The jealousy is always mutual. We fail to realise. Maybe the same person is craving for a life of yours. You never know. Life is like that. People are like that. People keep wishing, keep wanting others' looks, others' lives. Ever wanted to have their problems?

My father once told me a story. maybe you have heard it. Let me quote it to you:

Once there was a wise man. He had many followers and admirers who used to come and trouble him. They used to tell him their problems and asked him for a solution. One day he got fed up and went to the Himalayas. But those people even came there to trouble him. He got an Idea. He told them "All of you write your problems on a piece of paper and fold it and give it to me" He kept all the papers in a container and shook it vigorously. he then told them "Everyone take out one chit and open it and accept that problem to be yours from now on" Everybody took I a chit and read it And began to shout "No I don't want this problem. Mine was better."

I think you must have understood what I want to conclude from this. You may want their lives but deep down they too have a dark secret.God isn't partial. Well why would he be? Happiness is in small things of life. Happiness is in a hug you get, in a pat on your back, in sharing a chocolate between 10 friends, in having a pani puri treat, in having to wear your sister's fab dress, and many more. Maybe someone rich outside is craving for all these. It isn't about money everytime or about what qualities you don't have. It's about what you have and how you make the most of it. Remember: When life gives you a lemon maybe it's giving twice more to someone else. When you are craving for someone else's life maybe there is someone who wants yours. Those little moments of happiness you are avoiding right now are your biggest assets. Live them! You'll know Life is always perfect even in those imperfections.

A Girl's Letter

Dear Men,

In this letter I haven't the slightest Idea what I'm gonna write But whatever it will be will be straight From my heart!

I have tried to open my heart out to all you guys since a long time but as you all may be knowing you make it so difficult for all us girls to do that by your pet dialogue "WE ARE THAT WAY...WE ARE BUILD TO BEHAVE THAT WAY" so I would first like to say if you say what you behave with us is because of that Testosterone then I must tell you that even girls have a rush of that hormone but they don't stare at your private the way you stare at our privates. You would never know what we feel like when you stare us like you are gonna eat it up! We're not walking pieces of meat that you can devour. That totally makes us feel like kicking between your legs.



The second thing I want to talk about to you is that you people "judge" girls on their beauty....Grade them, rank them! Who the hell has given you the right to do that! You are not the one who has given us birth. "If you want a girl as beautiful as Angelina Jolie Then first you too should look like Brad Pitt" First look at yourself in the mirror then come to judge us on our size, weight, color, face or anything that you consider. I've been through times when I pass by some boys with my gang and see boys choosing which girl they like...I mean WTF! First ask us if you are worthy to be chosen! It's just pathetic...

One of the most important thing i wanted to mention... Actually not mention But I have a question "Have you got any respect for feelings?" You treat girls like they are nothing but just dolls...Play with them and when you get bored leave them! I won't say bring your Sisters and mothers in between but yeah What if you were a girl and someone did that to you? Just think about it.... You would write thousands of quotes on girls about how they broke your heart and blah blah but when it comes to you a girl's heart doesn't matter at all right? Sex is one part of love but it isn't the whole as most of you think...Actually for some of you love is just nothing For you only sex matters...And you even get "Bored".



Yes I will say my parents ARE afraid to let me hangout late till night...they are afraid when they see me texting to a boy....My mom is afraid when i choose a sleeveless dress or a short dress...She is afraid when I style more or make a new hairstyle or I wax or i go to parlor ..She is afraid that one of you is there who will break my heart and yes I too am afraid of that. I am afraid to eat a lollipop or an ice cream or a cream roll....I am afraid to even walk on the streets...I am afraid one of you will pass by touching me making me feel uncomfortable. I am afraid to even look straight..i am afraid i might catch you trash talking about me or my friend or might catch you giving those dirty expression...I have many more fears But i would end here. Maybe this would be enough...Maybe it will never be enough but i have just one wish that you people get a life. that I or any other girl would have to ever worry about such pathetic things ever.

Sincerely,
Just one more (un)afraid girl.

[P.S.: I got the idea to write such post when I saw this article: dear fellow folks on 18 till i die I'm following this blog. i hope you like my version Though I can never touch her writing standard :P]

The Confusion

Colours of Life fade
Fade and again recover
One moment i am sad
And happy in the other
What's happening?
I don't have an answer
Maybe I'm facing a confusion
Just another...
It's taking over my mind
Taking over my heart
Darkness all around I find
One moment
Brightness in the other
What's happening?
I don't have an answer
Maybe I'm facing a confusion
Just another....
Tears in my eyes I have
Just a change in expression
One moment I smile
And it's gone in the other
What's happening?
I don't have an answer
Maybe I'm facing a confusion
Just another...
For one moment i'm
The part of the crowd
And separated i feel
In the other
What's happening?
I don't have an answer
Maybe I'm facing a confusion
Just another...
I just need some Air
I need some peace
Life isn't being fair
Oh moments, be steady please!
I need some time
I need a break
Need a swim
In the memory lake
To figure it all out
To clear the confusion
To make my mind balanced
And to break this fusion.

Candle

This is one of my most cherished poem...I wrote it when I was in 10th class...And like everybody appreciated it and I still love this one...



There was darkness...
All around!
There was sadness...
In every sound!

Then...someone came and lit me
The place became bright.
Everything started glowing,
With hope and with my light!

I was in pain...
And I cried!
The table got white stain,
When my tears dried.

But I had satisfaction...
That I showed when I became bright
Of giving hope and Determination
Till the end...Till i died!

Incomplete Love...

We may or may not have experienced One-sided love but we all have a faint idea that how it can make you feel...This story is as i see one-sided love through my eyes!

For the chat she had...she loved him
For the care he showed....she loved him!
She couldn't stop smiling every time
She now could make love rhyme
But then one day he told her a secret
He loved a girl who left her and she began to fret.
He told her all those sweet memories he had
Never realizing what feelings she had...
She had just one faith in her heart
Maybe he will like a new start?
And he confessed it one day
He wanted to move on!
She felt a sudden strange happiness
Never knowing he had some other plans
And then one day she told him everything
Not knowing what his answer would bring
"I've started falling for you
I've started loving you
You are the boy of my dreams
You made me know what love really means"
She said it all on the chat
She thought it would make him glad
But the reply made her surprise sad...
"You are my cutest friend yaar" he said
"Please don't make it complicated
You are not the one for who I waited
You will always be my priority you know that
But always as a friend, I'll pamper you my brat"
She cried that whole day
She was left with nothing to say
Not that she was too desperate
But she wanted some love that would never fade
He could give her that fairy tale she knew
God doesn't make such boys, Only few!
For her his happiness meant a lot
She removed the thought of love from her mind slot
She decided to be happy with whatever decision he takes
She had a belief "For everyone, someone special god makes"
"I would get mine sooner or later
But now I have to help him get her"
For his smile she could do anything
Anything without thinking for her what it would bring.
She thought maybe he is not the one for her
Maybe it's an incomplete love, just another.

The White Dress

"Her hair is just so perfect Actually everything about her is unignorable and you know..." He couldn't stop talking about his crush and she couldn't resist but keep staring at him madly....crazily as he talked She was in a half listening and half thinking mode! "He is just perfect for me but....". They had been friends for 2 years now and she didn't even realize when she started falling for him but one day he broke her heart by telling that he likes someone and since then she was his secret keeper.

" I wish he understood what I felt for him... I wish he understood why I wore his favorite color white today" she thought. "Oh Boy! you keep on babbling about her just go and talk to her once!" She totally didn't want to utter those words but did! "I will one day" and with this he gave her a good-bye hug! "I love you so much" She thought. "I wish she realized that it was her who I was taking about! Why doesn't she ever catch my hint? Why can't she notice me admiring her in the white dress she was wearing today?"

It's easy to joke...

I was just going through my FB timeline when This post shared by one of my friends caught my sight it was posted by a page Awesome Quotes and I suddenly felt too ashamed 'cos once in a while in my lifetime I have made a huge mistake... I am totally ashamed of myself and thought I should share with you all Because it's never bad to commit a mistake but it's worst if you never admit it or never improve it! 
So this was the post....

Its easy to joke on a Sardar, but It's too difficult to be a Sardar"
.....................
I was standing at jalandhar station when my attention went towards a Sikh youth standing near me wearing a Black turban having a long beard and wearing a kirpan over his shirt. 

After a while, one local train arrived, which was totally packed. The Sikh youth tried to alight the train but failed to do

 so. Just then a voice was heard from the back coach 'Sardarji Barah Baj gaye' (Sir it's 12 o'clock!)

The Sikh youth looked over at that voice maker who was a young Mischievous type of person and instead of showing any anger made a smile towards him.

 

The smile made was so enigmatic that it seemed as if some type of truth lies behind it. Not able to resist my temptation, I walked towards him and asked why did he smile at that person who teased him.

The Sikh youth replied, 'He was not teasing me but was asking for my Help'. I was surprised with these words and he told me that there was a big history behind that which one should know. I was eager to know the History and the Sikh youth narrated:

During 17th Century, when Hindustan was ruled by Mughals, all the Hindu people were humiliated and were treated like animals. Mughals treated the Hindu women as there own property and were forcing all Hindus to accept Islam and even used to kill the people if they were refusing to accept.That time, our ninth Guru, Sri Guru Teg Bahadarji came forward, in response to a request of some Kashmir Pandits to fight against all these cruel activities.

Guruji told the Mughal emperor that if he could succeed in converting him to Islam, all the Hindus would accept the same. But, if he failed, he should stop all those activities. The Mughal emperor happily agreed to that but even after lots of torture to Guruji and his fellow members he failed to convert him to Islam and Guruji along with his other four fellow members, were tortured and sacrificed their lives in Chandni Chowk. Since the Mughals were unable to convert them to Islam they were assassinated.

Thus Guruji sacrificed his life for the protection of Hindu religion.

Can anybody lay down his life and that too for the protection of another religion?
This is the reason he is still remembered as "Hind Ki Chaddar", shield of India. For the sake of whom he had sacrificed his life, none of them came forward to lift his body, fearing that they would also be assassinated.

Seeing this incident our 10th Guruji, Sri Guru Gobind Singhji (Son of Guru Teg Bahadarji) founder of khalsa made a resolution that he would convert his followers to such human beings who would not be able to hide themselves and could be easily located in thousands. At the start, the Sikhs were very few in numbers as they were fighting against the Mughal emperors. At that time, Nadir Shah raided Delhi in the year 1739 and looted Hindustan and was carrying lot of Hindustan treasures and nearly 2200 Hindu women along with him. The news spread like a fire and was heard by Sardar Jassa Singh who was the Commander of the Sikh army at that time. He decided to attack Nadir Shah's Kafila on the same midnight. He did so and rescued all the Hindu women and they were safely sent to their homes.

It didn't happen only once but thereafter whenever any Abdaalis or Iranis had attacked and looted Hindustan and were trying to carry the treasures and Hindu women along with them for selling them in Abdal markets, the Sikh army although fewer in numbers but were brave hearted and attacked them at midnight, 12 O'clock and rescued women.

After that time when there occurred a similar incidence, people started to contact the Sikh army for their help and Sikhs used to attack the raider's at Midnight, 12 O'clock. Nowadays, these "smart people" and some Sikh enemies who are afraid of Sikhs, have spread these words that at 12 O'clock, the Sikhs go out of their senses. This historic fact was the reason which made me smile over that person as I thought that his Mother or Sister would be in trouble and wants my help and was reminding me by saying off 'Sardarji Barah Baj Gaye'.

Micro Fiction: A Mistake

"Now this is my first attempt on a Micro Fiction And i was encouraged for writing this by my friend's blog Isle Jazz I hope You all like it :)"

She kept staring at moon like she was waiting for an answer. She could hear the faint voices of her parents talking "Her life is totally destroyed What will she do now?" it was her father. "I think we should send her somewhere else where no one knows her" said her mother in a disappointed tone. Now she clenched closely to her own body she couldn't stop her tears anymore. "Afterall it's all her mistake why did she trust that guy so much? It's only her fault!" She could feel that obvious anger. "Yes it's all my mistake.I've been raped the boy I trusted. But he only wanted pleasure. The pleasure he got from my body. And for that he seeded that trust in me and Now here I am all alone Hiding from society and he's roaming out there freely.... Proudly! It's only MY MISTAKE" No one was there to hear her except the moon!

 

Many Opportunities Lie

"Don't worry darling! When one door closes the other always remains open!" These were the words of my father when He found me crying in my room... I was crying because of the fact that I didn't perform upto my parents' expectations in Competitive exams! I was always thought to be intelligent not just by my parents but by many others....and that one thing made me a lot more sad then I should have been!Actually sometimes when I look back to that time I feel other people felt so much interested in what I do!

Now Let's go back to some flashback...... Ahh there it is! The time when my 10th result was out! Everyone was so happy! I secured 92% marks as never thought! It was a surprise for everyone including me too.. Whatever it was it felt good! it was three years back in 2009. It was a big time for me i felt like I'm on the ninth cloud and still felt some kind of nervousness...Because it was time I had to Finally decide what i would choose...maths Or Biology...I left no other option to myself because 10th class made me love these two unconditionally! And after pondering over both the subjects and by consulting a lot of people I finally decided to take maths! It was Finally time for me to start studying like a Bookworm! (which I had never done in my life and god knows what helped me in my 10th boards). You know when we are in 10th our teachers and parents tell us "Just work Hard this year and have fun rest of your life" When you enter 11th everyone is like "Just work hard these 2 years and have fun rest of your life" And then when you enter engineering they are like "Just work hard these 4 years and enjoy rest of your life PG will be fun!" I don't know what they try to do...But whatever it is they fail in most of the cases....

So yeah We started with coaching really good I worked hard for two weeks and then I was like "i can understand all this really well...I don't need to work that hard" And everything worsened.... I mean i reallly understood everything but forgot that I will forget all that soon and to remember it i need to Read it over and over again...My percentage fell down and I took it negatively Like every other teen...My parents were really worried..Me too but they thought I didn't because i didn't work for it at all...

Finally When The 12th came and The end of it was near... I really felt like I was gonna get a nervous break Down...I mean i was not that bad at studying and learning But everybody built so much pressure on me...my family, friends, relatives, teachers...everybody had their own Expectations My coaching sir told me he expected me to clear AIEEE and I could do that! But the problem was that I wasn't good with competitive exams I always get nervous, or tick the wrong one, or do any such kind of mistake...but this time it was worse! The first paper leaked out and the second paper was really really really tough...twisted questions and all and I was exhausted by studying in the break of 3 hours.....OMG! i ruined it all!!!! I felt like the world's end!

But still MP-PET (Madhya Pradesh Pre Engineering Test) was left as an option with many good colleges....But i never knew what my mom had in mind! I didn't make it to the best colleges...But some other good colleges in that exam But my mom thought she would keep me in my own city in one college....It was a good college but Mostly people criticized it you know it's said "ghar ki murgi daal barabar"? In the same way It was popularized by everyone in the city! I was against my parents' decision first...they tried to explain the reason a lots of times but I didn't listen to them! Finally I made up my mind that I'll go with their decision and entered the college...And thought they were right..It was not that bad! Actually It was better than my expectations...And i still had the chance to study hard and get good ranks here and study hard for GATE and CAT and do PG from a better college!

I could have taken a drop and maybe after it i would have ruined it far more or even chances were their that I would have improved But who cares...there are Still opportunities for me Lying ahead have you ever heard "BETTER LATE THAN NEVER"? Same is what i feel now! People read stories about famous people and their famous failures they praise them for a time and then forget it! Why not implement the thought? Failures always lead to success. THE END

You know when one door closes on people's face they think it's the end of the world...and feel like dying. Always remember Dying is never an option. God has always planned something for you and maybe it is better than your own wishes! Never lose hope and strive ahead...Work hard and one day You will acheive What you always wanted! Suicide is never an option! whenever you feel that way always consult someone wiser than you...Maybe not your parents but any other elder person.

I have seen many cases where people cry when their result turns out bad...and when i tell them other options they are Don't even Try to consider them...I don't know what they feel about them..But the point is no job is big or small "keechad mein hi kamal ugte hain" Right????

Even if I would have failed in engineering I would have been left with other options Like B.Sc. and with that i could enter research field...and do some good for the society...Similarly their is never an end If you fail In medical Or In any other field just search for a ray of hope and You will be guided...

"Life is the way you take it....Just Always Stay Postive"

Confession Of a "Blessed Daughter"

When I was born It's obvious I was too small to know that I am a girl or a boy...But my parents knew very well....I was there first child and for my family I was the second child...the second Girl child! Many people would have been disappointed to see a girl child "AGAIN". But this was not the case with my family...They celebrated my birth... And I think God was too happy with my family for this and thus blessed it with three more girl children after me...!!!



"Kitne dukh ki baat hai" a man said this to my Grandmother...."Kya matlab?" She clearly knew what he wanted to say and was filled with anger but still tried to confirm (she thought may be he'll understand he said wrong) "I mean Fourth time a girl! That's sad to hear" He said without hesitation....My grandmother was filled with anger to hear this statement of his! My Aunt (Chachi) was blessed with a girl as her first child. "You know why I have four girls in my house? because even God knows that who respects the gift of God! Now i would like you to never come at my house again because i don't want my kids to ever see your face" That was my grandmother's Words in anger! I totally love her for saying that! Mostly we see Elder people asking for a boy child...Expecting a boy child from their daughter-in-laws all the time But my grandmother was different. She knew that bot are 'equal' and believed in the same logic! She always says "humare ghar hi paanch betiyan kyun ayi pata hai? kyunki bhagwan bhi janta hai ki bacchiyon ki kadr kaun karega". Not only for her own daughters and grand daughters she is that way...but even for her daughter-in-laws she has the same feeling. she treats them as her own daughters and loves them. She has a special place for my mother I don't know the reason but she does....Even my mother and father had a love marriage and it was 'Inter-Caste' but she was never against this marriage.....My grandmother is one of A kind woman that anyone would love as a mother, a mother in law, a friend, a wife, a daughter, a sister or any other role...Since my grandfather died before i was born she is playing the roles of both in our family. She has a special soft corner for me.... even my mother doesn't know the reason maybe because i was the second girl child and maybe she had the fear many will criticize it but she loves me a lot and my other sisters too. She is well educated herself and has struggled a lot to teach her 5 children and made them capable to give excellent education to their children. She has taught me lessons of struggle in life to achieve what you want...to love endlessly, to share, and to be a good example for everyone.














(my bua and my smallest sister are still missing in this pic)

As far as my Bua (my father's sister) is concerned. She is the one who has the most love for all of us! she is elder than my father but still unmarried and I don't think she will ever marry anyone....She believes we 5 our her own daughters and has in store endless love and care. She is the one who has pampered us as well as scolded us too. She is the one who always is there to fulfill every wish of ours and she is the one who will scold us first for every mistake of ours too. Just let your words of wish come out of your mouth and the wish has been turned into reality by her! I never understand from where she has acquired so much love for us girls but she never looks dissatisfied with her life! Like every other member of my family she has a short temper as well and i am afraid of it too.....but as soon as she gets angry she forgets it too...!


These are the two ladies in the house I appreciate a lot! I have learned a lot from them. My family i.e. Me , my father, my mother and my sister don't live in my hometown Because of dad's job in other city but every time we visit there we don't feel like we are outside our home. I don't know if the situation had been different if we stayed there and I even don't care about wondering over it but I just love the way everything is. Both mu uncles and aunts are so much loving and caring Have surprises for me and my sisters everytime we visit there and we have a lot of fun there. They treat us as their own kids...never differentiate always have store of love that never gets empty...what more will a person long for?

My mother and father are just superb...I don't have any words to say anything about them. I just can't thank them enough. They have raised me and my sis better than people raise their boys! I know there are always some restrictions Indian parents make to girls...and they have made them too...But I don't complain about it now! They have given us everything we ever wanted...Never demanded anything but just to "Study Well". What more a girl will ever want? My parents are both teachers by profession but never told us if they didn't have enough resources to fulfill our wishes they just did their best every time! Their marriage is Love marriage "Inter Caste" and mostly such marriages don't work out But this case was different! there marriage is just not successful but very famous as the Greatest Pair too.... Not just for us but for others too they have the same love and kindness...And that makes them my "Hero". i can never see tear in their eyes and for that reason I even broke up with a person I loved a lot. He was my BF for 2 years but as my mother came to know about him she cried a lot. She didn't like him and for her sake I broke up.... i don't know it's right or wrong but I can never hurt her. I only have one wish that even after marriage I can live with them and if not I keep doing something for them all the time. They have been role models for many of their students and I am one of them!

I feel proud to have such a great family and I call myself "Blessed". I pray to god that In every birth of mine I am blessed with the same family over and over again.

People say "ladkiyan baap ke kandhon par bhoj k samaan hoti hain" but my family doesn't think that way they have done everything to teach us and to make us capable of supporting ours and their needs Now it's our turn to do our best and give them what they need. And I promise I will do my best Always!

I have only one prayer at the end to god! please bless ever girl with the same family as mine.... I don't know why people kill girls but they really have a special something and that is what i have figured out by seeing every girl and woman i have encountered in my 19 years on this planet. Please give people the wisdom to know the true value of a girl. Let them know how blessed they are. "Ek beta shayad apko apke dukh ke samay chhod ke chala jaye par ek beti humesha apke sath khadi rahegi"

The bitter truth!

Lets see some Truths of out society and Our leaders!

The far out vision...
True enough we all know about the law of nature "Survival of the fittest" And the same gets applied everywhere. People who have resources get everything but what about the deficient? Why we don't do anything for them? For Development It's important for overall development. I hope people understand it soon! Somewhere it's roots lie in corruption and politics...

The unstoppable growth....
Unresulted debates on corruption have been made are are still going on! There is like no stop to it! Out fathers have fought for it...Now it's our turn! Roots are stronger but not impossible to cut!

The Voice Never Heard
What the fact lies beneath is...Politics is involved everywhere! Politics swallows up the voice raised for improvement and it always remains unheard!

The banks...
Yes! the vote banks! I don't know you people have heard of it or not but I have read about it a lot! Every political party has a set vote bank! It's probably visible that people from one caste mostly vote for one common party cos that party works in their favour (or even not) Either way Politics works the way it wants!

"Healthy" Competition!?
When first The reservation was taken into consideration by the constitution it was made only valid for first 10 years and only for Harijans. But Politicians for their good are still stretching reservations till now! to maintain their vote banks! This reservation is not removing the caste system but making it more prominent! More and more castes are now demanding reservations! Is it right if the deserving ones our deprived form what they deserve????

Some compromises...
We all know about the casting couch business of Bollywood! But It just not stops with just Bollywood! It has it's roots in every field! You can't even think of! Even politics as the news has been heard on news channels...We don't know it's true or not! But still possibilities are of any option! Business is also filled with compromises! Not only for women but for men too...

Prostitution
It's never by choice always due to some kind of pressure on girls! Sometimes girls under age of 18 are kidnapped and sent to this business for making money! sometimes some girls have to do this because they find no other choice for survival!



Beggar Buisness....
I think everyone has seen Slumdog Millionaire...We all our aware with this side! Children are kidnapped of any age and raised to become beggars!!!!



Female Foeticide...
I think many people believe that girls don't have right to live! Okay so kill all the girls and eventually you'll be left with no boys too! I think those people forget that only girls have blessing to give birth to a new life! Or If you prefer your boys to be gay you can continue...! Okay no? so you let her live...then? It doesn't stop there....people even snatch from them their rights to get educated, to have freedom to do what they want...they are treated like slaves and are married are considered burden....When will this small mentality of people grow big?



Child Marriage
We all know about the show Balika Vadhu It's about children who are forced to get married in small age and what they go through after marriage... At the age of playing an studying...The innocence of these small kids is snatched from them! Mostly it is problematic to the girls...as the boys are given what they require but girls suffer many other problems. they are required to work at homes and not play.... get pregnant at small age causing miscarriages and even death of girls...sometimes their husbands leave them when they find love outside or if unnatural death is caused to the boy at small age the girls are held responsible! It's banned by the constitution but still goes on secretively at many small villages.




Money Matters...
I think you all know about the dowry system and also that it is illegal! But do people who still continue it know about that?


And He kept saying...(and kept doing!)
Domestic violence is another bitter truth of India! Woman are beaten up in houses for not bringing dowry or for other reasons! They feel helpless and can't seek for ways to get out of this circle of torture! Some commit suicides some are beaten or burned to death! Some who are stronger are successful to come out! What about who are not?



Molestation!
Everybody knows about the recent case of molestation in Guwahati! A girl being tortured by 30 men...watched by crowd of 100+ and no one has the guts to save her but had guts to video tape it! And this country preaches that Women our God's gift! It's the same country that worship's Woman As Goddesses! Harsh Reality Difficult to digest!



Honour Killing
India is a country with rich cultural heritage and diversity! It's the house of many religions! But I think many people don't consider it "One" therefore intercaste or inter religion marriages our not supported! But some people have so much hatred that they feel that Honour killing is the only option left! Let me explain it's meaning: In order to save their "pride" they kill their own family member who was once beloved to them! I don't feel there is any kind of honour in it! The constitution has given rights to people to make their own personal decisions and no one has the right to snatch them! No one is given the right to kill.... make love not kill.....



AND THE LIST DOES NOT END HERE!!! MAYBE THERE ARE MORE FACES OF OUR "CULTURAL HERITAGE'...... CAN YOU MAKE A DIFFERENCE? DON'T KEEP ON ASKING WHO WILL CHANGE IT...BE THE CHANGE!

A fairy tale life....

Today I was going through my old albums....with pictures of me and my small sister. Those pictures gave me a wild thought abut how we change as we grow up! I know it's not that wild because we all change and it's natural! But it puts me to a thought millions of times! Why actually do we change? Why? Is it because we get mature? Do we actually get mature or more practical or something else? Whatever it is! I also think is it good to change even? You know during our childhood we are Innocent commit mistakes unknowingly! Hurt people but still they love us! But as we grow up we do the same and people hate us for all that! Why?

When we are small we hear Fairy tales and other stories....and those always end up with a moral!!! Our parents or teachers or any other person telling us that story tells us that we need to imbibe them! We trust them and we do the same!!! But as we grow up we realise that it's not that easy task! You can't be obedient all the time! You can't always agree to your elders! you can't always say the truth! You can't always share (when it comes to love) And so you change! And in many other tales of such kind of your own life!

When you are small you hear stories with always "and they lived happily ever after". But as you grow up you face the real world you come to know it's never the ending...it only is a beginning! You need to face more of that bitter stuff! I always wish life was the way it is in those stories.....

WITH ME BEING THE PRINCESS....


OR THE MAID TURNED TO PRINCESS...OR MAY BE A MERMAID?

A DASHING PRINCE...


A BEAUTIFUL CARRIAGE AND A ROMANTIC RIDE....



A KISS OR TWO OR MORE.....


A MARRIAGE TO REMEMBER...



SOMEONE TO SAY THAT....




I WISH LIFE WAS THAT WAY......
It would have been much easier to live!!!!

He still has that place...

So It's story about yesterday! I was just browsing through Facebook with nothing special on it and suddenly A thought of a person I've known for 7 years came in my mind! My hands automatically went for the mouse and i clicked on the search box typed the name and searched for him!!! Opened his pro and started looking at his photographs! "He still looks the same to me" Was the first thought in my mind! It was my first crush's profile!

I went back in flashback to the time I first saw him! He was the first guy who i ever had crush on! And I don't know what was that thing that attracted me towards him but It felt really good whenever he was around! He is two years older to me and I was shy enough to not being able to ever talk to him! But I was successful enough to tell my feelings to him over an internet message! That's it! I still have dreams about him like I used to do before! Just few days ago we were together in one theater watching movie and I so much wanted him to smile at me once! Just once..

So now I kept browsing his profile when I saw some song lyrics related to heart break...And I saw the comments...and there her best friend's comment was about his break up with some girl! I don't know it was true or she was just teasing him! Whatever it was It made me totally uneasy! I felt like crying that moment and kept watching that commenting in a way of analysing it in my mind! Then suddenly I thought "Why I am doing this! I am behaving like that I never had boyfriend in this time period!" I felt this thought only in the mind and not by heart! My heart was still crying!

Why did it happen I don't know! But it made one thing clear that he still has that special secure Even after four yeas of his negative answer to my proposal! And even today when I see him I feel butterflies in my stomach! Is that love or just attraction??

Ankhein Kehti Hain

Ankhein bhi kitni ajib hoti hain...
Ek nazar me kitna  kehti hain!

Uthti hain jab kisi ke deedar mein...
Khushi badha deti hain kisi ki muskaan mein!

Jhukti hain toh kehlati hai haya...
Kabhi doob jati hain uss samay mein jo chala gaya!

Chup na pata hai unmein vo dard
Chahe koi chupana muskurahat mein agar!

Ansu na chupte hain lakh chupane se...
Dard nahi chupta lakh musurane se!

Aaina hain ye uss chupe hue dar ka...
Zara dekho dhyan se pata chalega apni kadar ka!

Chupi hai vo kahi us sheeshe mein hi..
Kadar hai use pata chalega dhundne se hi!

Khushi,dar,dukh,pyar ye sab dikha jati hain...
Ankhein bhi na jane kya kya keh jati hain!

Something Called Love---Chapter 2: Some Decisions

"She dreamt it that night...
Sitting besides her in Candlelight!
Was love of her life...
Asking her to be his wife"


"Anjuuu.... get up! You'll get late for the school", Anjali woke up at the call of her mother! The smile was so wide that she was unable to hide it anyway! "Holy shit Why was it only a dream!God please make that all true." She giggled!

"So that's what the problem is! What should I do?", Anjali told Sanjana at school. "Hmm....what can I tell you yaar! It only depends on you! vaise you know na he would probably say no!?" "Yup i know! But I think if i'll tell him once I'll feel better when he leaves...What you say?", I said smiling. "I hope I feel okay!", I thought!

"Why do you talk to her? You know I don't like her!" "But why do you hate her she is so nice! She is my very good friend! I like talking to her", Arjun told Surabhi. "But...", She interrupted. "I don't know why you hate her..she likes you...and i liker her as a friend...and i'm not gonna leave her!",Arjun was determined! "Fine! If that's what you want don't ever talk to me again!", "Why do you say that all the time? I don't tell you to talk to her? I like her and I can't stop talking to her! that's my final decision!", He told Angrily! He had that commanding look on his face that surprised Surabhi he was never like that with her. She had a little feeling in her inside that Arjun liked her and Anjali was a threat...But this totally was different for her! He walked away and she had nothing to say!

"I want to tell you something!", Sanajna said in a meek voice. "You know day before yesterday what happened between you, me and Arjun? remember?" Anjali Now knew the whole scene! "Listen I'm sorry if we hurted you! But that was totally not what he meant I know! You..." "But you now it could've hurt me still you laughed on his shitty joke? I mean Is he that important to you Anjali? I feel you forget me with him!" Interrupted with this type of answer Anjali was totally surprised! She never thought Sanjana could feel that way! They had been best friends like Forever. She meant like a sister to her, She loved her with all her heart! "You know Sanjana I'm extremely sorry! I can never hurt you! But I thought you both are friends and you won't get hurt. Sanju I'm your best friend! You tell me what should i do! I'll do whatever you say!", she had that regret in her eyes! "Please don't talk to him whenever you are with me! please?", She was amazed! And happy from inside "At least she didn't as me to break Friendship", She thought. "You know why I didn't ask you to break friendship?", Sanjana had a smirk in her eyes! "Why?" "Never Mind", Sanjana giggled.... She thought she should keep it a secret for the right time!

"So now my Final decision is I'll tell him!" "Good for you I think! when Will you accomplish it?" Arjun asked as he took out his cycle. " I...I have not decided it yet maybe after Preboards", Anjali thought after some thinking. "hmmm It's your decision That's good!", Arjun smiled. "You know Arjun....I always prayed I could ever talk to him but for some reason I could never! I so much wanted to be in the Tagore house when I was in 6th just to be with him...But didn't get a chance! Now I am with him in the same house but still I'm unable... we were in the same play too... I don't know why this happens...Maybe Internet will help me somehow But I know it's too late", She was utterly disappointed! "Don't be sad yaar! maybe it had to be this way maybe you deserve something more better!?", Arjun tried to comfort her She smiled looking in his eyes.

"ANJIIII...... Come na!" This was Sanjana! "COMING! Arjun I need to go now bye!" "But we three always go together! what's new today?", Arjun questioned this uneasy gesture by both girls. "Ummmmm.... Actually Sanjana is angry with you...She told me not t talk to you when we both are together!", she tried to explain to him. "So? If she is angry why should you not talk to me? You are my friend too...." Arjun was Angry...this surprised Anjali...she never thought he would react that way! "why Arjun It's not a big deal...You both talk on this topic and sort it out...I don't want to be the beech ka bandar" and with this she left him! She told everything to Sanjana! She started laughing "That was the reason" she said."For what?", Anjali asked. "Never Mind!" Anjali got a slight Hint!

Arjun too was surprised on his behavior. "What am I doing?" He thought while cycling home. "I fought with Surabhi today and now Anjali! What's happening to me! Is she...No...No she is not that important...Hai na???", he tried to keep this thought away from hi mind for the rest of the day!

"What happened to him!? It totally must be Surabhi I know...She is the reason...They were talking today and I feel she told him not to talk to me and that's why he was Uneasy...I'll talk to him tomorrow about this" Anjali thought while reading her novel before sleeping. "But what was Sanjana Thinking!? I think she has gone mad...actually she is mad!" She giggled and went back to her reading....

Road Of Life....

I wrote this poem when I was in 10th class.... I Still like it a lot! I hope you all will like it too...


A long journey awaiting...
And my bag God was packing!
Journey is exciting, end is sad.
My arrival will make everyone glad!
The time has arrived for it to start...
I know...It will be slow not fast!
Start is smooth...middle is rough...
The end will be the most tough!
Knowing all this the journey started...
My Mother's wish was Finally granted!
The childhood was the time of gold!
Toughest time started when i turned 13 years old!
That part of road was a mess...
The things happening their no one can gues!
Time was hard on adult road...
Where there is one bus that everyone wants to board!
Finally end was near...
And i had some fear!
I felt like i'm being threatened...
And thought of everything that happened!
Then i broke all the strings i tied...
And at last I DIED!

They Have The Same Dreams...the Same Emotions...the Same Desires

"I know I have made a mistake! But what I did was because I loved him", She cried! "Is he not the culprit in all this?", she asked! But no one answered. The society called her a Whore. Just because she was pregnant. 2 months ago she never thought this could ever happen to her! She was totally in love with this boy! But the dark fact lying beneath this relationship, she didn't realise!!!!

"She is too sexy! I just want her! Bas ek baar mil jaye toh maza aa jaye Zindagi ka", he told his friends. "So get her! I bet she will fall for you!Dude you are the EXPERT" & she did! she made the biggest mistake of her life! His Lust won and she was called a Slut! These two words composed of the same 4 alphabets arranged in different manner changed that girls life for once and for all! The society left her no option but to Die!!! No one criticised the boy! Nothing ever changed for him! He still is a playboy! And he doesn't care!





This cruel Male dominated society only criticises women for everything and guys for nothing! Why is it so? Do guys don't have any hand in all this? Just because girls are affected doesn't mean only she is responsible! They just did it all in love! I know it's all wrong. But what can she do??

"Do you love me??" "Yes baby more than myself" "Then why are you saying no" "It's just i am a little afraid!" "Don't be afraid! i am here! You trust me na!" "Yes darling..." This one YES!!!! Only this yes is responsible???? Not that convincing??? Why don't guys understand that love doesn't lie in sex. Love is above it all!!

Actually Society thinks girls are responsible because they wear small dresses. Short skirts, shorts, Capri, even jeans. But why? If these dresses are made it is natural for girls to get attracted to wear them! They wear all these dresses for their love for them and their satisfaction. Not to attract boys!

Few days ago...I was watching "Gumraah" a show telecast on [V] channel. It shows how teenagers of today make mistakes and ruin their life for forever! In one of it's episodes the told how a girl was gang rapped by a gang of boys from a small city...just because she wore small clothes. They had the mentality that girls wear small clothes to attract boys! One small truth they fail to realize that it will ruin her life for forever!!! WHY can't they think before they act? That girl cried "please don't do this" But they didn't listen! Was that a mistake of that girl? No! but the society thought so! And because of that reason her parents were ashamed and didn't complain in the police!

Actually such a mentality in boys is induced by the society itself! Their parents and relatives tell them that girls wear such clothes to attract boys! Now the whole blame comes on society!

Every next day we hear stories of rapes, molestations, Eve teasing, etc. But nothing major action takes place to stop them! In one episode of Gumraah Another Mind boggling story was shown. It was centralized on a girl whose family was very strict! And because of this reason she never talked to any boy. Once a boy in order to propose her gave her a letter she refused the proposal but by mistake kept that letter in her bag! Her brother saw that letter and started blackmailing her! He kept a proposal in front of her! He said that He'll never tell anyone if she kept satisfying his needs! And we all know what his need was! HE even brought his friends home to satisfy 'their needs'. The girl once told her mother about all this! The mother couldn't find any other option and Poisoned her!

Who's to be blamed in all this? The brother? The girl? Or the mother? Or the cruel society that was responsible for that girl's and mother's fear! the society needs to change....We need to change! Only then girls will be able to feel safe in this Nation!!! 

India is rich in it's culture and heritage! Hindus pray to goddesses but fail to understand the importance of Women in real life! Only this awakening needs to be brought in the Society!

We need to ensure that girls feel free to live in this world!!! They don't live with an ever lasting fear in their hearts of being physically tortered by boys or by this cruel society!

My parents Are very strict! they don't allow me to go out with my friends! I used to get very angry about all this! Then they used to tell their pain to me! They told me that it was not them who stopped me! It was their fear...the fear of the cruel society and the Immature mankind! That could harm me!!! I don't blame them now! I really Don't!

Unhein Udne Do...!

Pankhoon mein udaan bharkar
Jee rahi thi vo jee bharkar

Kyun daali bediyan uske pairon mein?
Kyun bhej diya use gairon mein?

Tode uske sapne aise...
Udte panchi ko dala ho pinjre mein jaise!

Kya nahi hai use sapne dekhne ka hak?
Atyachar sahengi ladkiyan akhir kab tak?

Kab milega unhein apna har adhikar?
Kab kar paengi vo apne sapne sakar?

Panchi hain vo unmukt gagan ki unhein udne do...
Behti dhara hain sheetal jal ki unhein behne do...

Something Called Love--- Chapter 1: Best Friends

"We can never be together again, sorry"
"But I will always wait for you"
*I will always wait for the day i can get back to you....Always*

"I know you like her a lot, why don't you just say it to her?", she asked him. Arjun got lost in his thoughts, "I can't even talk to her...she makes me go blank." Anjali giggled as she took out her cycle from the parking. For last 5 months they had been attending the same coaching and it led them to become good friends...and gradually to best one's! 5 months ago they didn't even think of talking to each other. But now they were like best of friends.

"At least my situation is better than you", he said. "You wouldn't be able to see him after 3-4 months...u know na?", he asked looking in her eyes. "Please don't remind me.... How would i even live? I mean from 6th grade i have been liking him and now suddenly...Accha chod...I gotta go now ...Bye good night...meet you tomorrow at school", she left. Arjun went his way. Anjali fell in love with Vishal when she was in 6th grade and Vishal was in 8th grade. She never dared talking to him! The first time she saw him....she fell in love with him. 

Actually in 6th grade she had entered the senior building of her school. With new uniform something more changed in her life! She was now changing from inside. Now she started looking towards everything with a new perception. She was going through the changes every girl went through of her age. She was entering her teens...She started realising that there was one more thing important in her life but she was not able to figure it out...until she finally saw him. One afternoon during monsoon she was standing outside with her gang of friends in school during recess chatting and gossiping. Suddenly her eyes fell on him...It was Vishal. He was approaching her...His light brown eyes gleeming with joy. She didn't know the reason behind it but she fell in love with those eyes! He didn't even notice her and walked past her but she had captured it all. The way he walked...the way he laughed... the way he was talking to his friends, his dark brown hairs which waved in the cool breeze! His voice was echoing in her ears "Yaar I'm the Vice captain, I can't Believe it" She suddenly realised it.

For Arjun his story started in 9th class when Nidhi came to live in her colony...Just in front of his house! *peep* It was a car horn! He came outside to see what was it! And then he saw her coming out of the car. He couldn't help but capture that innocent face in his eyes. She looked quite happy to be in the new city. And he was happy that she was his neighbour. But to his great surprise and joy she was also in his own school...but in 8th. It would have been more easier for him to talk if she was in the same class as he was a little shy!

"So you've never talked to her? Dude! She lives in front of your house! Go talk to her!", Anjali said and giggled. "I know but you know na how i am? You study in my class from 12 years and still i have never talked to you! But she... she means a lot more than you! My mother goes to her house daily even after that i can't talk", he sighed. "Never mind...she is in my sister's class and her good friend. Maybe she can help?", Anjali asked. "No! Never it would be so awkward!" "Okay as you wish".Thas was the first time when Arjun told Anjali about Nidhi. "I have told Surabhi about her like a loads of times... She always says she'll help me! Let's see who wins! You or Her!", He said jokingly. "I don't care I just want You to be happy....i don't care who brings that happiness", she smiled. Arjun felt something but didn't say anything. The bell rang and their free period was over...And they headed towards their class. It was their 10th grade and boards too...but They were not able to concentrate. For Anjali the fact was that this year Vishal would leave the school forever and she would never be able to see him again.

"How can I? I mean he is 2 years older! what will he think? But I need to tell him my feelings" She thought while cycling back home. "I ought to....I really think I love him. I'll surely find a way", with this she entered her house. "Hi baby, you back? come on change your clothes and come for dinner. How were your class today?", her mom said. "It were absolute fun ma! You know Arjun came late again today and mam again joked on him" "Okay leave all that fatafat kapde badal kar neeche aao everyone is hungry."

After dinner Anjali was lost in her thoughts about Vishal. "You know what happened today?", it was her sister Ananya. she was 1 year younger than Anjali...and they got into a long chat and then Ananya finally slept. Anjali again got lost in her thoughts " May be Sanjana can help me in this.... I'll talk to her tomorrow." She switched off the lights....

Zindagi Ki Reet...

Kai baar zindagi aise imtehaan leti hai,

Humare apno ko humse juda kar deti hai!

Apne ap ko kho dete hai log Apno ko pane ke liye,

Ek alag duniya banate hain gum ko chupane ke liye!

Koshish karte hai Bhul jane ki Vo pal nirale...

Koshish karte hain ki apna gam chupale!

Na bhulo tum ki gum aye hain toh khushiyan bhi ayengi,

Thoda sabr karo Patjhad ke baad hariyali fir chayegi

Zindagi ki reet hai ye paltati rehti hai,

Zindagi ki reet hai ye badalti rehti hai!